I’ll soak up the hugs and kisses and I love yous. The baby smells. The baby breathing. You’re small now. One day you’ll be big. You’ll no longer fit snugly into the corners of my lap. One day isn’t here yet. Right now is. Each time I get to hold you. Feel you breathe...
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One time when I was a little girl, probably 8 or 9 a neighborhood bully ramped my brand new bike up the side of a tree. I ran and got my mom. She marched down the street and confronted the bully’s parents. I remember her body muscles rigid and poised with anger and the...
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I got a library card. Well an online account. And I’ve been borrowing books and reading them in a fury. Why I waited this long to get a library card is beyond me. And why I’ve been paying for paper books when I could be reading them for free just seems ridiculous. There are...
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You spend a year doing something every day. Building a habit. Building discipline. Doing the work. And as soon as you stop holding yourself accountable, and make an excuse, the habit breaks. The momentum stops. You stop doing the work. I think what I’ve learned so far is that if I want to post...
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When Kady first asked if we could adopt you from her sister I said no. I didn’t want a dog. I was worried about money and the responsibility. I resisted but finally relented. And you moved into our third floor attic apartment in Somerville. Little did I know the space you would come to...
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You can let adversity make you angry. You can let it push you away from those you love. You can let it become regret. Or You can accept it. You can allow it to help you see your humanity. Our common humanity. You can use it to live more fully in the moment. You’re...
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My heart is so full I feel like it could burst. And I know I did something right. You sing along and snuggle close. Pat my stomach like I pat your legs to soothe you while you fall asleep. Our notes intertwine and we make music together. Mother and son. My beautiful boy. I...
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Today was tough. Started off with chaos at work. Changing priorities. Rework. Minimal communication. Worry about what to do next. I had a little breakdown. Nothing major. But enough to tell me that this whole crazy situation is hitting me. It crept up like shadow and has overtaken everything. And I say this knowing...
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I’ve been working from home for a month now. I remember when coronavirus was just starting to become a topic of discussion. I didn’t really know what to think of it. Or how big it would become. I stayed away from the office before the call was made for those who could to work...
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But I’m not posting it. But I’m writing. And trying to build the habit again. Not all of my ideas (and many that I post) aren’t worth putting out there. And that’s ok. It’s still clearing the cobwebs and serving a purpose. I think I’ve been sucked into social media so much lately that...
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