Sometimes you just need to tell your baby you’ll be there for them until they fall asleep. And then they fall asleep. And all is right with the world for that moment. The boys are asleep. Kady and I are relaxing together. It’s been a good night. Sleep well everyone....
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Sometimes in life we don’t make it to that next step when we want to. We might even be ready for it but for some reason we get held back. Things don’t happen in the timeline that we want. It’s frustrating. It’s annoying. It might even make us mad. But I have found that...
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Nights four and five have sucked. Sleep training sucks. Kids are insane. This is all insane. I’m too exhausted to write anything clever right now. It feels like there is no end in sight to this madness. The thing that bothers me the most is not knowing why. Why won’t he sleep? So many...
Continue readingSleep Training Night Three – The Floor Routine
Last night it took Lou 2 hours and 15 minutes to fall asleep. I tried to capture the third night with some humor because it was very frustrating and I don’t want to be a whiner for this entire post. Last night I wanted to cry and to quit. But we stuck it out...
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The second night of sleep training was harder. It took Lou 2.5 hours to fall asleep. I got frustrated. I was tired. But. We made progress. Last night was the first time Lou has fallen asleep without one of us holding him or laying next to him. He was so tired and after five...
Continue readingSleep Training – The First Night
The hardest part about sleep training is starting. There is so much anxiety about bedtime routine and lack of sleep that it keeps you from even starting in the first place. But last night we started. I learned so much about my son. I even laughed. Multiple times. Lou needs to learn to go...
Continue readingEffusive Moments
I should always write when I’m feeling effusive. That’s when the poetry comes. When I’m out walking with my son. Or staring into our new babies’ eyes and he smiles. Or when I’m drinking good red wine and missing my mom. Inspiration strikes and what do we do? Feel it for a moment. Maybe...
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We all want to hide sometimes. To crawl away somewhere and pretend our problems don’t exist. That the world isn’t a total mess right now. Big or small there is a desire to run away from what’s difficult. But at the essence of hiding for me is a desire to be found. To find...
Continue readingWanting Easy
Let’s rephrase that. Do I want things to be easy? Hmm. Yes? No. Sometimes. Do I actually want easy or … Do I want … Time with my wife to bond Time to read a book Time to write Fill in the blank. I don’t want easy. I want to fill my life with...
Continue readingNothing Is Sacred
And the question is – what is actually sacred? Marker on the couch. Scratches on the hardwood. Stains on the carpet. Who actually cares? We are living. That’s what matters. Will I really give a crap that my floors are pristine or that I resold the house for maximum return when I’m dead? No....
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