Catching Up

Sometimes you just have to catch up. There aren’t enough hours in the day. You can’t get things done because too many other intrusions pop up. And it’s even enjoyable and satisfying to have some quiet moments to get the work done. Work doesn’t always have to be conventional in how you get it...

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F—ing Chaos

Its not even the physical. Kids running around. Climbing. Touching everything. Pouring Talking Rain on the couch. Eating a five month old Fruit Loop. Pooping. Peeing. Barfing. Crying. It’s chaos. But it’s the chaos in your head that needs to be sorted out. How to sort through literal overstimulation? It’s hard. Learning to quiet...

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There Are No Answers

You’ll ask and ask and ask around. But no one will know. You’ll do research online. Forums. Chat rooms. No one will know. You’ll buy books by experts and they still won’t know. No one knows. Because you’re looking for your answers. They can only give theirs. And that won’t work for you. There...

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When All Else Fails

Say a prayer. Keep your heart close to what matters most. Love. It’s not easy to be that strong all the time. And it does take strength to persevere. But the alternative isn’t better than what we hope for ourselves and our lives. Momentarily it may release angst and anger and frustration. But it...

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When It Doesn’t Work

What happens? How will you respond? More importantly how do you want to be when it doesn’t work and you’re left with no solution? This is an important distinction to make. Because failure isn’t just about what happened. It’s about how you behaved when your careful intentions and planning didn’t work out. It’s easy...

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The End

It’s easy to focus on the end. What we want to happen. Where we want to go. How we want to feel. But there’s a pitfall to focusing on the end too much. We lose the journey. And this can also cause other problems. We become impatient and frustrated. I struggle with this a...

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Can’t

This isn’t a word I use often. But when it comes to dealing with lack of sleep or a child that won’t go to sleep I can’t do it. I suck at it. I constantly feel like a failure. Like my kids and wife hate me and I’ll never be worthy. Yeah. It’s that...

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Get Out

I feel incapable of writing anything profound lately because I am exhausted. Lack of sleep. Tantrums (mine and my son’s). Travel. Stressful work situations. A dog who’s health is failing. At night I have weird dreams. I’m working through so many emotions all the time. It’s overwhelming my subconscious. I feel like I’m surviving...

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