I have light and noise all day. I like dark and quiet at either end of it. Sometimes we say things without thinking and then realize how poignant they are. It’s not surprising that I like dark and quiet in the morning and again at night. Most mornings I’m reluctant to have the sun...
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The urge to call you to tell you something silly The longing for your hugs Or to sit in a quiet room with you But more likely watching Chopped and listening to you say crazy things at the tv You had a sick sense of humor when you wanted to I think of all...
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I did some yoga tonight. My mind was very active the whole time. Worrying about the basement renovation. Parenting. Work. So many different thoughts were swirling around in my head. But I kept moving. Kept breathing. Kept listening for the cues. At the end of the class the instructor said something about letting ourselves...
Continue readingAll The Things I Want To Say
Are not the things that will help anything. Or change anything for the better. Or make me feel better. They’re just an attempt at control. When what really needs to happen is letting go. Giving up control. Surrendering to what is and won’t be changed with anger. It’s so hard to do. But if...
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I had a sort of epiphany today. I had a tense moment the other night. I was washing dishes and everywhere I turned there was mess. The counters. The food scrap bin. Cheerios on the floor. And I had just cleaned the entire kitchen a couple days earlier. As I scrubbed the dishes I...
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I learned of a friends passing today. Life’s events can feel so fleeting. As if we are only tethered to the earth by gravity and nothing else. And without it we may simply float from place to place leaving no roots behind. But that’s not accurate. It isn’t only gravity that holds us. It...
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When I was a kid, maybe seven or eight, I was waiting for my mom to finish grocery shopping. I had been nagging her out of boredom so she sent me outside to wait. Not something I would do with my kids now but it was the 80s in Ohio and perhaps the prospect...
Continue readingWhat Hurts Now Helps Later
When my mom was little she was playing near my grandmother (her mother) while she was ironing clothes. My mom was being nettlesome and kept trying to touch the iron and my grandmother kept telling her no. “You’ll burn yourself.” In spite of the warning my moms little arm kept darting out attempting to...
Continue readingThe Balloon Effect
Life is all about air. Breathing in. Breathing out. In with the much needed oxygen. Out with the toxic carbon dioxide. There’s a reason it feels good to sigh. Kids love balloons. When they’re filled with air they spend countless hours throwing them. Chasing them. Bouncing them. But eventually they deflate and the fun...
Continue readingIt’s All Math After All
I’ve been talking to Lou about feelings lately. And how they are kind of like a math equation. You have a bad feeling or a bad moment, well that’s like a negative sign or subtraction. You’ve taken something away. And you need to add something to make it positive again. So you have to...
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